Crawling back

into my old shape... kinda

My way to getting back my skill is actually harder than I expected. I am currently trying to fix my ZvP with CarLM who is a british GM MMR Protoss. 

Well what am I supposed to say.. at least he is nice to me -_-
It's not just my gameplay in general that is shit at the moment, especially Protoss is f*cking me up quite badly.
I don't understand the dynamics of ZvP at all it seems.. It came to a point where a Protoss killed me with a 200/200 2-based max army after I killed his Main, Natural and Third. So I asked CarLM for in depth practice session. Well - as you can see in the picture - I did not do so well I guess..
Anyways! I am taking a huge amount of my day to play Starcraft II at the moment and I am trying to sort out my ZvP maybe I can win future games in the Ladder and in tournaments again and get back into my old rythm~
By the way I never was so furstrated in Starcraft 2 ever. My mechanics hold me back so badly. Playing against CarLM made me realize that I am not even close to being good at Starcraft at all. I always thought that my mechanics would at least be decent but they aren't at all. I quickly get frustrated because I know what to do but my hands are not capable of doing the proper things. It feels like I am hold back by boundaries.
I hope I can get back soon and I'll try to post more often.
~ Max